Thursday, December 30, 2010

an except

because i'm only into the first chapter and already i believe this could be one of the best books i would have read.


entertainment takes it as a given that i cannot affect it other than in brutish, exterior ways: turning it off, leaving the theater, pausing the disc, stuffing in a bookmark, underlining a phrase. but for those television programs, films and novels febrile with self-consciousness, entertainment pretends it is unaware of me, and i allow it to.

playing video games is not quite like this. the surrender is always partial. you get control and are controlled. games are patently aware of you and have a physical dimension unlike other forms of popular entertainment. on top of that, many require a marathon runner's stamina: certain console games can take as many as forty hours to complete, and unlike books, you cannot bring them along for enjoyment during mass-transit dead time. (rarely has wide-ranging familiarity with a medium so transparently privileged the un-and underemployed.) even though you may be granted lunar influence over a game's narrative tides, the fact that there is any narrative at all reminds you that a presiding intelligence exists within the game along with you, and it is this sensation that invites the otherwise unworkable comparisons between games and other forms of narrative art ... a video game whose outcomeless narrative is wholly determined by my actions - as in, say, World of Warcraft, which is less a video game that a digital board game, and which game i very much dislike - would elevate me into a position of accidental authorship i do not covet and render the game itself a chilly collation of behavior trees and algorithms. i want to be told a story - albeit one i happen to be part of and can affect, even if in small ways. if i wanted to tell a story, i would not be playing video games.

a noisy group of video-game critics and theoreticians laments the rise of story in games. games, in one version of this view, are best exemplified as total play, wherein the player is an immaterial demiurge and the only "narrative" is what is anecdotally generated during play. (Tetris would be the best example of this sort of game.) my suspicion is that this lament comes less from frustration with story qua story than it does from the narrative butterfingers on outstanding display in the vast majority of contemporary video games. i share that frustration. i also love being the agent of chaos in the video-game world. what i want from games - a control as certain and seamless as the means by which i am being controlled - may be impossible, and i am back where i began.

reload.

Friday, December 24, 2010

feliz navidad

may your christmas be merry and bright.

picture by mojorison

Monday, December 20, 2010

boo yeah!

and that, my friends, marks the start of the festivities.

but first, let's get roaring drunk.

picture by eman333

Friday, December 17, 2010

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

this is a christmas kiwi


and it's meant to be a christmas-ish kind of picture. you know, the kind of pictures people put on blogs to herald the arrival of christmas and all.

and since the plausibility of a christmas kiwi is only matched by my current revision efforts, here's the tentative list of to-dos after exams:

1. get roaring drunk. christmas is about giving and forgiving, and forgetting aids forgiving.

2. get sober.

3, put up the christmas tree.

4. gift-shopping.

5. clean up my worktable. keep notes in flammable area.

6. watch howl's moving castle, and other unwatched movies in my computer.

7. run in the sun.

8. read a good book with a cup of coffee within reach.

9. repay sleep debt.

10. fix my watch.

11. visit artfriend.

picture by dolphy

Sunday, December 12, 2010

ocho días más

so till then, here's a happy song. sort of.



on a side note, discovered a nifty trend in the weightage my final papers

in order of commencement:
spanish - 50%
media management - 40%
creative strategies - 30%
narrative strategies - 20%

heh.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

here's kudos to valve


for the short comic they did for one of left 4 dead's campaign (the sacrifice). i always did love a good story line for my video games, and this doesn't disappoint.

without giving away too much, the comic chiefly covers the events leading up to "the sacrifice " campaign, and passages of the story is also hinted in the opening sequence of "the passing" campaign.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

quote of the day

you can come up with a hundred excuses not to do something, when all you need is a single reason to do it.

Friday, December 3, 2010

i'm tired

of being tired. of falling asleep the moment i sit down. of deadlines and inspiration blocks. of my best efforts not being my best shots. of trying to find a motivation for almost everything i do.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

to the unseen powers of fate

i pray that i'll not regret this.

i'm having a deja vu right now. a few months back, before the start of the semester, i looked at my final stars planner timetable and took a leap of faith that i'll balance out com427 and com231 just fine. okay. so maybe i didn't just take a look at it. i stared at it for an hour. i remembered because i got hungry after staring at the laptop screen for so long. so the matter disintegrated into a screw-it-i'm-getting-breakfast-it'll-work-out-just-fine.

today, i spent an afternoon staring at the laptop screen again, wondering the question of phase 1 or phase 2. they say to look before you leap, so i'm looking down from the edge. i'm liking what i see, but not the height i'm seeing it from. because while it's great to be doing the things you like and feel for, i'm starting to feel the burn of this semester's lifestyle, and i'm not sure i still have the positivity to keep this up for another half year.

so to the powers that be, if it amuses you, show me a sign. throw me a penny from the heavens, pass me a message through my alphabet soup, or anything. let me know whether i made the right choice, or if i'm better off as a grape farmer in some scenic grapevine and a grinning border collie beside me.

i have the biggest urge to drop everything on my plate, sit down, and grow mushrooms on my head.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

buenas noche, or is it dias?

anyway, this be the last song on my playlist today. i like it better than paramore's.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

just for laughs

apparently this ad has been around for quite a while. guess this shows how much tv i've been missing.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

:)

it's nothing fantastic, really, but i can't remember the last time i woke up at noon on a lazy sunday with the whole house to myself, sipping coffee and reading the morning papers because that's what sundays are for.

Friday, November 5, 2010

me against the music

although a good chunk of my adolescence was spent in the late '90s, i didn't grow up with britney's music. or, for that matter, i didn't grow up with the regular diet of music most of my peers were exposed to at that time. since radio would remain an unexplored territory to me until very much later, my music influences mostly came from my dad's collection of oldies, and whatever songs my neighbor decided to blast with his powerful stereo system. which wasn't much, since the poor man loved to play the same songs on loop all day.

so anyway, in the heyday of backstreet boys and s club 7, while my classmates held impromptu live performances on tabletop stages with broomstick mike stands, i memorized the lyrics of abba and the carpenters, all of which meant i didn't realize the 'britney/brittany' episode of glee pretty much redid britney's music videos rather faithfully.

i'll kill to make a music video.



Thursday, November 4, 2010

it's been a helluva month

with another two to go. and despite the excitable events unfolding around me, the highlight of my day has now degenerated to my daily train ride home; my audio technica working at maximum volume to block out the jingle, and my blaring music making everything but sleep an impossible endeavor.

it doesn't make the slightest sense.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Saturday, October 9, 2010

grilled cheesus

yes, i'm a free thinker. i believe all religions exist, which may or may not be a paradox, but i cannot muster the faith to dedicate myself to one.

which is why the latest episode of glee stabs a familiar chord in me.

what's sacred to me, really?

Friday, October 1, 2010

it's 2am

oh yes i'm swarmed. what with the film workshop, an ad class with weekly presentations, the school club elections and the administrative handing/taking over, and blah blah blah. nothing to complain about, though, because the sucker that is yours truly foresaw all this and still chose to go ahead with all these modules anyway.

nothing inspirational to blog about, so here's a video instead. it'll be nice to do something like this as a final year project.

Friday, September 10, 2010

addictive


hahahahahahahahaha,
feel good,
feel good,
feel good,
feel good,
feel good,
feel good,
feel good,
feel good,
feel good.........

city's breaking down on a camel's back.
they just have to go 'cause they don't know wack
so all you fill the streets it's appealing to see
you wont get out the county, 'cos you're bad and free
you've got a new horizon it's ephemeral style.
a melancholy town where we never smile.
and all i wanna hear is the message beep.
my dreams, they've got to kiss, because i don't get sleep, no..

windmill, windmill for the land.
turn forever hand in hand
take it all there on your stride
it is tinking, falling down
love forever love is free
let's turn forever you and me
windmill, windmill for the land
is everybody in?

laughing gas these hazmats, fast cats,
lining them up-a like ass cracks,
lay these ponies at the track
its my chocolate attack.
shit, i'm stepping in the heart of this here
care bear bumping in the heart of this here
watch me as i gravitate
hahahahahahaa.
yo, we gonna go ghost town,
this motown,
with yo sound
you're in the place
you gonna bite the dust
can't fight with us
with yo sound
you kill the INC.
so don't stop, get it, get it
until you're jet ahead.
yo, watch the way i navigate
hahahahahhaa

feel good, ahhhhahahahah
feel good, ahhhhahahahah
feel good, ahhhhahahahah
feel good, ahhhhHahahahah

windmill, windmill for the land.
turn forever hand in hand
take it all there on your stride
it is tinking, falling down
love forever love is free
let's turn forever you and me
windmill, windmill for the land
Is everybody in?

don't stop, get it, get it
We are your captains in it
steady,
watch me navigate,
ahahahahahhaa.
don't stop, get it, get it
we are your captains in it
steady, watch me navigate
ahahahahahhaa.

feel good, ahhhhahahahaha
feel good,
feel good, ahhhhahahahaha
feel good....

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

a revelation

that one of my life goals is motivated by the fear of mortality.

Friday, June 11, 2010

freeze ray!

the number of movie trailers they show at the challenger store is amazing. this one's my favorite.



Sunday, April 4, 2010

hallelujah

yes i'm a free-thinker, but right now i can't think of any better word to describe my happiness. i think my com227 step outline is done. i think. because it's 3 a.m. in the morning and assignments that i churn out in unholy hours tend to bear a desperate anything-goes attitude, and an assignment which looks fine right now may very well have plenty of flaws and imperfections the next day. but right now, i dun really care. it's done.

happy easter sunday people.

happy easter by celesse

Monday, March 22, 2010

all in a day's work

to quote hiroshi takahashi, manga artist.

"manga is something that you need about a month to draw, yet it is read in only five minutes then just thrown away in the garbage".

somehow, it doesn't seem too much different from shooting a film.

i want to be a manga artist.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

almost alice

it just occurred to me that i have never read alice in wonderland, or through the looking glass.

welcome to the tea party
want to be my VIP?
you didn't RSVP
that's ok, that's ok

welcome to the tea party
(oh oh, oh oh)
want to be my VIP?
when i all steamed up,
hear me shout
tip me over and pour me out

your appetite is flex
i got the table set
don't get your dribble on my t-t-table yet

i got the goodies baked
got more than you can take
just try and nibble on my biscuits and my rainbow cake

let's be traditional
and non commissional
got my elbows down, pinkies up
that's the way you sip my cup

welcome to the tea party
(oh oh, oh oh)
want to be my VIP?
(oh oh, oh oh)
you didn't RSVP
(oh oh, oh oh)
that's ok, that's ok
(oh oh, oh oh)

welcome to the tea party
(oh oh, oh oh)
want to be my VIP?
when i all steamed up, hear me shout
tip me over and pour me out

try not to move so fast
you know the sir comes last
i'm the lady fatha mucka try to show some class

don't drink the last cup
we keep it boiling hot
we keep the party moving till we drink the last drop

let's be traditional

and non commissional
got my elbows down, pinkies up
that's the way you sip my cup

welcome to the tea party
(oh oh, oh oh)
want to be my VIP?
(oh oh, oh oh)
you didn't RSVP
(oh oh, oh oh)
that's ok, that's ok
(oh oh, oh oh)

welcome to the Tea Party
(oh oh, oh oh)
want to be my VIP?
when i all steamed up, hear me shout

tip me over and pour me out

i know this night is like no other
you're not just another
i know it's only getting better
as long as we're together
i know this night is like no other
you're not just another

welcome to the tea party
(oh oh, oh oh)
want to be my VIP?
(oh oh, oh oh)
you didn't RSVP
(oh oh, oh oh)
that's ok, that's ok
(oh oh, oh oh)
welcome to the tea party
(oh oh, oh oh)
want to be my VIP?
when i all steamed up, hear me shout
tip me over and pour me out

Monday, February 1, 2010

dear xx

i salute you. you're probably the first person who truly piss me off within 6 sms-es, and i haven't even met you yet. i'll be looking forward to seeing you this week, and though i'll be damned if you manage to track me to my blog and see this post, honestly i don't give a heck.